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{1]sekai wo ooini moriagerutame no newell no blog!!
{2]english no namae wa Newell Loo Jian Wei
{3]nihhon-go no namae wa Ryuu Takeshi Utsu
{4]soshite, watashi wa nihhon-jin ja nai daiyo!
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{6] dango!
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about me
just listen to my music.
an omg-ness contemplator.
blessed the world on september-11th 1990
biblically, gifted with:
1st]Word of Wisdom.
2nd]Discernment of Spirits.
2nd]Mercy.
tertiary shepherd wannabe in t-hope ;)
DISC personality: C highest, down by a level are D & S.
God-seeking.
Truth-guided.
Poetic.
Emotional.
Ocassional childlike.
Sacarstically bhb. Part-time moaner.
Fun-hungry.
Japan-loving.
Singeracous.
Logical thinker.
No-boredom permitted.
Contemplator.
Have fun knowing me.
www.friendster.com/newellnewell
Nobody is perfect. I'm nobody ;)
CURRENT STATS
Blessing the lecturers of Temasek Polytechnic Design School.
Glorifying the course Moving Images.
Prospering the nation as a Singaporean.
Scandalously having an affair with Avril Lavigne.
Scandalously having a gay affair with Jay Chou.
Indiscreetly, monogamously attached to Jesus Christ. muaha. Amen.
^^
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
HEY PPL
MY BLOG HAS CHANGED TO:
http://antithesisof-it.blogspot.com
RELINK IF YOU SEE THIS THANKS ALOT =}}
Monday, May 26, 2008
the following is a dialogue of ahbe and i.
it was a soul transformation chat for me.
i thank god for her, and i thank god for everything!
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours
I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Title: smart ppl listen quick and speak un-hasted.
HELO ppl! haha. it's been super long time since i blog. think i'll update a lil..
hmm, ive alr started sch in tp poly, design sch anw for those dont know and im currently taking the course Moving Images. yeah animation and videos. i hope to be a big and influencial good story teller for the world next time.
sch's tiring and many nights had gone without fufiling its purpose - sleep. still struggling with procrastination and outstanding quality of work. be the best.
actually tonight geck, pris, ahbe, shirls and i chatted/suppered at 2300+ gock got to leave at 0030 for her last bus. before that we played the game, oum-oum chaki, it was super fun until gock suggested we play 3 bullets =x then it got scary for me cos i fear the forfeits! in the end everyone got their hilarious forfeits EXCEPT AHBE. :@ the rest of us chatted till 0515+/-
actually i got this feeling inside i wanna blog smth more abt myself. but then again i dun know what it is and where shd i start. i know in me is someone screaming for attention and in yearning of someone to hear what i wanna say.
gheez i rly dun know what to start. i feel like ending this post here now.
abt 2 mths ago maybe i'd still have a load more stuff to say but recently i realised i cant do it anymore. and when im sad there's no way i could cry it all out anymore although i very much wanted to. i dont know why, i just feel a sense of exhaustion.
right,im not doing well.
i see the people around who arent so close to me - they make me feel like crying sometimes. what i was looking was was looking into and seeing their lives. their uninformed minds, their hearts unreached to certain places of life, their controlled soul, the slavery of theirs.
right much might not know what i speak of. lol. it's ok.
changing the world starts with an Act of Random Kindness at a time. this is so true. because the principle of multiplication indicates that 1 + 1 is not = to 2, but to an unknown ___
this is because when you help one person, you dont know how many more they'd help, and the helped will help. so if you help a class to not be burdened with a dislike and potential hatred towards a sufferer of effective communication and a victim of society with possible life background of loneliness, ...
some ppl might not feel disliking this person is a burden. however what do you all know, you have different reasons of dislike compared to another person. to another his ultimate reason for dislike was because of the hurt he received in a very sensitive and personal way, but what is it to you? just a disgust over a stereotype of a geek, quirk and impersonator? realise that common universally unaccepted behaviour dislikes bonded everyone together too. not common personal reasons. to the one who had been hurt, had the guy you just gossiped to abt this disliked guy experienced what you had experienced too? no, this bond was by 'common enemy' and it lasts for a very temporary period. since everyone will have different reasons of personal unacceptance towards this guy, and all had the intention of his elimination, should anyone of you hinder the plans for it you too will be disliked by the group and backstabbing will be a common thing to see already. backstabbing is the norm for communities bonded by common enemy.
in my opinion, he is an ignorant, untaught and opiniated guy. he yearns for response, responding to other ppl's comments - which is his disliked point. he might have only wanted to share his knowledge with the ppl in his class. he is therefore insensitive but it is not like it was his first intention - he intended to be insensitive. the issue here is MERCY. and showing Grace tests on ur covernant with yourself to be merciful towards him. for we will be easily annoyed again when he do that thing he does and urged to rebuke/condemn him.
imagine your shoes exchanged with his. now you are him, ignorant, untaught and opiniated. and he is now you, judgemental, unforgiving, unmerciful.
and from your childhood - you had no idea of his - you respond the way by how you was brought up by and you ARE JUST MERELY RESPONDING, with ur defense suit put up! YOU WANT TO BE SAFE RIGHT? SO DOES HE.
dont exaggerate your uncomfort to despise pls. conscience. when ur heart blackens. im not saying he's not wrong, but we're not right either.
we all need wisdom before we try to change another's life. last thing before i jump to bed, please, we're designers meant to be cool. >> superficiallyjudging, unintelligentmocking, and convinientcategorizingis NOT cool.andvery despisablecreaturesinthiscreativesociety.
Thursday, May 08, 2008
OH NO.
ppl, i havent update my blog for so long yet you are still visiting it? awwww.
anyway. today i wanna blog something not so personal. muaha. although i owe my ex cg a blog post (ENGIT4!!) but blog it soemother time ba although i eeryehh not quite sure is it procrastination but lols! I LOVE ENGIT 4 NEVERTHELESS!!!!!
kk, abt today's blog. wahla. i went to jogged at 2000h, my time was a horrible 28mins. oh no. then to fair it out with myself, i got a short break and bought a 100+ and immediately resumed stretching exercises. stretch legs! my left leg is less stretchable than my right if you guys didnt know. haha so im trying to balance it. yeap and after stretching, i go praticse my ninjado. im not in it alr but i still retain what i've been taught there... humm..*meditates* i did simple kicks like front kick and the side turning kicks and i realised how hylle much my skills had deteoriated. not sure if that's the right vocab to use but wow. even my left front kick isn't 100% flawless, my o my. and my turning kick i cant really kick sidewards enough. the arc isnt really an arc. oh no. then i realise it's cause i havent do the splits stretching exercise. BUT@! how can you expect me to do splits in public??! alone somemore. as in im the only one training martial arts there. ppl will think how come this person's here for running but his stretching exercises are abit way too over!!
imagine with me runners ought to do splits before they run. haha. sstupid.
anyways then i met a few gays there.. and i continue to stretch though.. yea cool.. i kept practising this kick in the floor called Chunyatsu. its a near 360degree kick on the groud which means the user has to bend his body down balancing with one leg and a hand and go whhoosh! its main objective is actually to trip the opponent only. not rly inflict pain haha/
neways i just go check outted with mah name. apparently it's Newell right? here's the list i've found of the -ewells and their noble existence type: Bewell - a handphone company, a English PhD, a building name. Dewell - a construction and forensic engineer, a girl rugby player Fewell - a female star, a name of a park Hewell - a plastic surgeon (lol), family name of alot families. Jewell - soccer coach, star, soccer player Kewell - soccer player Lewell - great real estate agent, a star/band Newell - ^^ Pewell - name of a house Rewell - boxer, Sydney's no.1 Image Consultant Sewell - star, playwrighter, an big underground contruction site, model Tewell - Portuguese golfer, a minister Wewell - a Japanese health brand Yewell - George Henry Yewell (?) Zewell - Pastor or something.., soccer player.
MUAHAHHAS :D
eh ppl im sleepy gotta slp soon i think. so nights!
Sunday, April 13, 2008
about half an hour ago, someone came knocking on my house door. peered though the peep hole expecting my mum, but he wasn't.. with a tiny eruption of hope in my heart, but i tried to contained it and remain still at mind and heart. i went to my room to get the key and went to open the door...
"hello :), are you liu jian wei...?"
MY WALLET WAS RETURNED TO ME!!!
":) can you please check if everything's still intact?"
*IC* *ezLink* *money*
what a pleasent surprise! the guy worked in guardian himself and he found it.
just so you'd like to know, the chances of getting back my wallet is diminishing as hours pass by. the time of misplace and the time of realisation of loss was less than 5 mins. imagine how quick a theif i thought stole it. nevertheless, we immediately asked the worker in Guardian, as well as the officers in Tampines MRT control room. no news of lost wallet. i even went to the MRT toilet to search for it, and be still you, i searched the garbage bin too.
the moment i lost my wallet i prayed.
that night after the Planetshaker's GOD-WOW! concert we went back to tampines int and i asked the person of int control room.
here and there when my heart is trembling i secretly pray for the recovery of my wallet.
day 2, when im peniless, unexpectedly joseph's mum blessed me with breakfast/lunch and her ezlink card to let me use for transport! and just the night before i prayed to God for financial assistance.
i initially dont know how can i make it to nexus the next day and even simple things like travelling home from joseph's hse(i stayed over night there). still i know we are to cast all our anxieties and worries to God. with a surrendered heart, God works wonders.
the feeling of that familiar fear will always return to haunt me. but everytime it comes i turn to God, meditate on His word and just have faith.
at the time being God show me memories of my past experiences and how things turned out alright with His help. i remember the fear of a child leaving behind everything and take the first step into God's courts. the trades i had with God for His gifts with my sorrows, His blessings with my worries. He honoured his covenant to us indeed.
these three days were a time of testing, teaching and renewal from God of God. my motives i questioned my heart. my learnings of his word are put to test. my conditional faith became unconditional.
each decision i choose, God sees. giving thanks despite circumstances.
prayers are powerful!
as the sinner seeks devotion.. God's grace to man is always sufficient.
His 3000+ promises made to man, He keeps them even when man forgets Him.
For He IS Love, the one God of gods, King of kings, an honourable God. A God I serve.
Have you manage to experience Him today?
:D the joy i received, currently listening to Saviour King - Hillsong.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
haha, i was chatting on msn with my cg (our daily night routine called CG Part II) at the same time webcamming cum chatting with peiqing!
some pictures are big, so rmb to scroll sidewards!
so as a picture paints a thousand words,
see for yourselves! :D
pq announces her nature's call o.o
(15 mins later) pq is indeed proud to announce her nature's call, and even accused me of restricting her to ease herself! i didn't ok! T_O
aint my tortoise cute! had adpoted him since 1998 and was my only dearly loved friend then.. serious. i even rmb saying "ma, don't you think how impossible it is for life to go on w/o him(my tortoise)?" although i was expecting her agreement, she doesn't..
gettin sian..
sianned.
found task to do! or was it insecurity issue? hiak hiak!
and just right after her "glamour-maintainence" she fell for temptation again...
peiqing on cloud9 after learning that i did an act of service to change something for her...
seriously i don't know if she realised i took this many screenshots of her but here's the final one. and seriously i think she's very photogenic in this photo...
10/10!
Monday, April 07, 2008
hellosh
i know i havent been blogging for a few days.. so tonight's the act of repentance.
hmm,, contemplate with me: dont believe/follow/adore what's most practical but believe/follow/adore what's the safest. because what is most practical will always be not so in the time tt will come. but what is most safe, as said, is safest despite time. But be searching, but seek deeper, and you'll see what's the safest. and for me the safest i've found in my sea of knowledge - the Bible.
what's the good reason to give your all to worship a thing that changes in time to come? but what is it to give your all to worship a person that will never change?
talking abt good trading, a defination of Humans. now know that the good trade is Jesus.
anyhow, im gonna change topic to things more personal.. bet it's gonna be emo again, but here goes:
today, i asked myself how come some other people can show off their capabilities and potential in such an efficient manner while i can't? i asked myself, what's that sharp one second hurt in my heart i experience by hearing the fact praise of someone being smart? "am i really less wiser/intelligent/knowledgable than him?" as most honest i can get in quiet contemplation i'd always answer myself: "no."
yet how come others are already receiving their glory while i haven't? is it really a fate that pioneers suffer first? as according to the principle that pioneers suffer the most. ->as observed in anyone of this world throughout history.
or have i really been illusioned by my complex flowing of thoughts that's actually INSANITY? that society can put it blatantly - STUPIDITY?
however, logically yes, those who are ahead of others in wise thinking(maturity, wisdom, worldy intelligence) are always afected/hurt by those that are behind them or slower - to put it blatantly. to prove my point biblically, ask yourself what have you done to Jesus. :)
so is this the reason how come im still suffering? that kind of wrong accusations or judgements from other people yet i still remained silent? that kind of hurt that i get from the people i love? i love all people! that kind of jealousy yet it's a sad one? blue jealousy - that's what i'd call it.
im more of sad that others cant know me and fail the relationship we have for their sake more than for mine!
but when i'm in love with them i dont condemn them. but the next conversation i'd have with them would be a fresh beginning - that's what i feel. and im in love with everyone.
but things are more complicated than that for im struggling with my alter egos.
it's not like i cant prove and show off myself to others in the beginning. i can be like always before, speak, preach, teach, lecture about things to other ppl with that edge in my speech that penetrates the membrane of the other person's field of thinking, which gives them the breakthrough.
i can dont stop myself from speaking to let others know of me. i can forcefully spread my 'own' gospel to ppl.
why did i stop then? experiences turned me to a humbled man. and being humble is not just shutting your trap and staying quiet, but is to listen.
although knowing that you are first, yet overcoming it by love for others and placing yourself second, third, forth...
this reminds me of Jesus.
yet the problems faced by a humble listener who holds worldy glory above his speaker, the tons of things that i once could share to awe another person for their temporal good now placed aside, shoved inside the drawer for a long period of time that now i've got problems opening the drawer that got rusty.
it results in loneliness.
most of the time, most of the things, i cant explain to you(to a certain extend even myself) straight-forwardly but i can only 'feel' the truth when i am misunderstood.
most of the things i cant articulate them properly because i havent been practicing speaking but listening. which results in discrepancies all over. however i still try my best to correct those i could. yet the main point is always not heard. [side track: i feel like i need a God-thing in my life is because God is perfect as said in the Bible. how do i know it for real? no i dont. i dont know all that tells me the Lord is perfect but what im dead sure of is humans aren't.]
God i'm doing what you desire aint I? be quick to listen and slow to speak...
i love your ppl. i help ppl with much compassion and relating because of you and because i love them. i tried the most scariest evagelism even before my faith was more stable, even before you are stable in my life but yet i relied on my human bravery for what is right. i pray to you for them for a miracle for every mistake i say with the sincerest of hearts.
yet the cancer of my thought is very much existing. Lord if you can heal cancer of the physical, please heal the cancer of the psychological too Lord. in childishness and rebelliousness i ask now: can anyone relate to me?
Lord, i practice this even before truely knowing you in my life. dont anyone see anything that can be proven by this fact??
i've been very searching of you Lord, since young ..
what i want now from you Lord, i dont know it now too..
currently listening: Devotion - Hillsong united.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
Gray.
When I was a child I saw in black and white Everything was obvious Either wrong or right. No arguments, no pros and cons Choices were precise. Pure and joyous clarity Gave me a simple life. So I grew and learned to face the world Living life the way. And now I feel so unprepared 'Caused black and white turned gray. My unfalthering vision failed Focus left my eyes. Where choices were once obvious I can't tell wrong from right. Because today I am a teenager And nothing's quite so clear. I'm seeing through an adult's eyes A child's biggest fear.
hey! today morning went to cpf board, they said "if you are using the cpf a/c of your parent for deduction of money for school fees, you need NOT provide any (i)photocopies of student and parent's IC and student's BC, and (ii)letter of appeal. you only do these if you are using the cpf a/c of anyone other than your parent to prove your relationship with that person. =)" ahh ic! yay!! saved me the trouble of typing the letter of appeal.. haha.
after that went shop seeing with my mum. and i got myself a spec! L: 25 degree + some flash R: 75 degree lol! so many ppl say im nuts. anyways, the spec can be collected from this wednesday onwards. weee.
the salesgirl was my mum's friend and she's really friendly and transparent to us while promoting the specs. she learnt that i got to go service at the evening and said that she was once a christian many years ago, but had converted to a buddhist. she shared her reason was due to her cant accepting some of the things that the Bible says. she gave one of the phrases she dont agree with. Jesus said that whoever that believes in Him shall not perish. therefore she said, if your future spouse isnt a christian but you are, then during the end of time both of you will be separated, you will accend to heaven while your spouse will be in hell.
so i tried to tell her that, things in the Bible cant be taken literally. you gotta read in a large scale context to get the true intended message. in the Bible, things will sometimes be said so blatantly abt a person's life. but the Bible also says even more clearly that God will judge one by one in the end and give a fair verdict. He surely wont crush his own creations like a tyrant would. therefore dont be so extremely convicted abt some things you are disagreeing of about the Bible...
she says she feels more freedom in the belief of buddhism. my mum and i left soon after that short chat. in the train towards somerset my mind kept ringing the words that salesgirl said. feeling sadded and burdened for her, i also remembered how many more are out there in this world having a misconception abt christianity therefore severed their relationship with jesus christ. and then i rehersed the moment i was conversing with her, and this time more calmly i can think of better answers i shd had used to answer her just now.
if she says she cant agree with the claim that those who dont belief in jesus as their saviour will perish, this is what i will answer her: God didn't bring death to his people, but people to themselves. Destructive are men. God, seeing that men made death their fate was extremely concerned for us as he cant bear to see his loved creations die therefore, he asked his son jesus to die for the sins of men as an guang-ming-zhen-da action of sacrifice and his love so that men can be redeemed. the only thing God needs for our redeemtion is our belief in the redeemtion itself that jesus' life was taken for ours. in other words, God has alr paid every price there is and all that we gotta do is accept the invitation(his attempt to us).
this is what the verse meant. ppl will often thought how come God is so demanding, so arrogant or like a tyrant. for he wants us to belief in him or else we will DIIEEE! we un/subconsciously think that God himself actually administered death onto the unbelieving people. but no! God didnt bring death to his people, instead he brought life. but men brought death to themselves so now God has to do it again - Jesus! he brought life to man again 2008 years ago for all man through Jesus.
and if the salesgirl asked me how come im so sure death can just be overcome by a belief - Jesus the saviour. i would say: just as Jesus resurrected 3 days later after his death in our place by the Spirit of the Lord, so would you too be able to overcome death by the same Spirit who lives in you once you belief in Jesus. as said in the Bible: [Romans 8:11] - And if the Spirit of him who raised Jesus from the dead is living in you, he who raised Christ from the dead will also give life to your mortal bodies through his Spirit, who lives in you.
therefore, try your best to make your spouse belief then! It's God's job to change the hearts of ppl and all we can do is give our best for God to use us to the fullest.
Christianity, is not just only saving souls. it's also about your day-to-day things like schooling, parents, love life, favourite hobbies, friends, blogging, friendstering, downloading illegal mp3 songs (xD), music and dance and all the things that all of us do - Christianity is about everything and i just have no method to express that clearer..
You owe yourself that, to know the message of Jesus Christ.
actually i had intentions of blogging abt my experience today in the Easter Service... but it seems like my post here is already long enough than expected, so i guess it's alright and i'll just blog abt the other thing i wanna share some time soon! haha. bye for all. also shepherds, please let me know & correct me of anything i had blasphemed or misinterpreted if i do. =)
